Today is probably one of the expected days. Let me explain.
Last night, I had a blast, getting a shot of happiness from doing a victory group with my students. Very fulfilling. And connecting with a girl in chruch. That kept me up and motivated. I was also happy about getting some instructions for the new work on my site. I gave instructions to Karen to do my long delayed Tropical Design Book 2013. I also had a talk to Alvin James, the programmer about my dilemma with Joseph about the completion of the site.
And then low hit me. Didn't expect it to come as a blast. But there it did. Went exercise in the morning but got stuck on the thought about the 3-week no progress on my site and Joseph's no action or communication for these long time.
Probably I should be painfully careful that I only think of positive things when they are un-analysable.
So there I was sitting in Pr Ryan's leadership group, no wind in my sails and almost sinking. Mood swing alert. I'm going down.
I had to do my karate defense chops. I ducked some bullets and maintained my unpredictability but having to figure out how to meet Julie overloaded my circuits.
It is certainly no secret that I am losing hold on relationships and friendships in church.
It is only a saving grace that I get to recieve an invitation to Riverside Toastmaster's Club. There I can unwind and actualize my frustrations. Well, you are right, dear, I need friends and specifically psychiatrists.
I need to get this site up this year. But the way it is going, Joseph might not be coming back till June. Then that means I might have problems and finally close the finishing touches by November. Let's fast and pray that I will last that long.
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